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@jjlifenstyle

“Be more like the ocean, breathtaking to look at, strong enough to not be destroyed but gentle enough so that others find comfort in your presence” -cwbrook
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My husband & I went to dinner last night & had the most deepest conversation, but it was a good one. We reminisced about the night he proposed, the trouble we came across during our first year of marriage & talked about ME. I got so emotional when I started talking about how far I’ve come in changing who I am because I hated who I was before I met him. People can change. I am proof of it. My heart was so broken that it was so ugly. I was an onion with layers that I wouldn’t allow anyone to peel off. I knew something had to change & I knew it was me. I thought being strong meant to be tough & mean so I disregarded anyone’s feelings & didn’t let anyone get close to my heart. All of that had to stop because it was exhausting. All I wanted was to be happy. I found my peace when I decided to seek God. That is what changed me, not my husband. Being with him brought out the best in me, brought out the REAL me thats been hiding behind thick concrete walls. What initially changed me was having a true honest relationship with God. My husband reminded me of how far I’ve come & how he knew that the person he first met was the person I was meant to be. We talked about how in the first year of our marriage the old me would come out & he could never understand why but he was patient. The more I thought about “why” I realized that I must have been scared to get hurt again & some part of me got defensive & wanted to build that wall back up, the wall that both God & my husband broke down. I snapped out of it because I knew that I didn’t want to push away the one thing that God blessed me with, which is a good man. I chose this exact quote because it reminds me of how I wanted to be back then & it’s exactly how I am now. I love the person I have become, I love the new me. The ME that genuinely cares about other people & their feelings, the me that puts others first before myself & the me that knows how to trust. I’m not afraid to fall because God & my husband has my back. #mytruth #mylife #thenewme